I was sitting in Yoga class this morning and appreciating how I no longer take on anyone else's energy. How it has been so many years of living in the light and having healed enough of my shadows that the darkness of others is met within me with a smile and love.
I am fully aware and in tune with the world in a way most people would say is either impossible, overwhelming, or scary; and yet I am clear, calm, together, and on point with my life and mind and being in all ways. AND...I don't take on the energy of my surroundings. I uplift and bring peace everywhere I go, a clear focused fire which burns away shadows.
But it didn't begin that way.
Children are naturally sensitive. Most children have empathy in a way that many adults wonder at, if they take the time to consider it. Some children have extremely high levels of empathy, or sensitivity. They can feel everything, emotions, thoughts, judgments, shadows, light, goodness, darkness, and much more. They know what they know but there's often no way to translate it into the world and communicate it to anyone else.
By age 6, much of this sensitivity, inner sight, and knowing of the invisible worlds is frequently shut down in children as they are trained to be functional in the physical world. The empathy with other humans may or may not remain, but the spirit senses are dulled or turned off and sacrificed on the path to adulthood. What adults call fantasy or over-sensitivity is often ignored, put away, and dismissed as irrelevant or distracting.
For some children, their sensitivities are so great that it collapses their sense of self and leaves them lost in their inner worlds, unable to bridge their soul's perceptions into anything useful or relatable on the outside. The heart of such children is generally naturally oriented to light, goodness, healing, and service; but they are crushed by a combination of outer forces weighing them down and their sensitive reactions to those forces. Sometimes these overly-sensitive children learn to function in society and stuff it down, become a productive adult in a professional capacity. Other children are special needs and just cannot hold it together in school, much less as an adult in the world. They are labeled and pathologized.
I grew up somewhere in the Autism/Asperger's spectrum. From birth my body would not respond to normal touch in most ways; I was frozen and staring into another world or dimension for the first six months of my life. My eye contact was not solid much of the time and with most people. My speech and language developed normally, but social skills and the ability to interact with other people was seriously delayed. My attention span for making magical concoctions out of berries in the forest could last for hours; but in school my ability to listen or do homework was abysmal. Being smart I could pull it together and get through elementary school as an excellent but quirky student with few friends; but by High School I was flunking out of classes for lack of homework and focus on more complex material. I was diagnosed with ADD and went on medication for 2.5 years, which helped me eliminate most of what I cared about from my mind and heart and die inside so I could get good grades in school.
After High School, already in the midst of spiritual awakening, I stopped all medication and pursued more and more of what I was drawn to: meditation, yoga, reiki, massage, shamanic healing, and spiritual community and training. This led me on many paths and healed and grew into myself. I arrived finally at what I practice professionally today with the Modern Mystery School.
In the School, there are many branches of study. Initiation, Galactic Activation, and Kabbalah drew me in right away and Kabbalah became the foundation for the rest of my life -- an entire system about building life from spirit, from the inside-out, and seeing the results manifest in tangible and physical ways that I could not begin to explain. Ways which were better than I could have imagined or asked for, and which continued to improve and refine year after year.
After 6 years of dedicated work, I began higher trainings like the Ritual Master program and Guide training. These brought me beyond my original plans for this life -- fulfilling everything I originally desired to accomplish in this life, but leaving me by age 32 with a healthy body and mind and my entire life still ahead of me. Since that time, I have charted my course in service to others, and after 13 years of dedicated work, I have the power, tools, and knowledge make real the changes in the world I have always desired -- to see individuals coming to peace and knowledge of self. To feel and know that the world can be brought into the Light. That there really are ways to say no to evil in the world; that we are not powerless to stop the negative things that are seemingly always going on around us. That together we can redirect the world to be a place every child wants to live in, where every child can express their dreams. Where every child has their entire life to unfold their joy and share the real reasons they decided to be born.
Here's to that world, to a wonderful holiday season, to being re-born into a world of Light. If you're ready to get started, email me: firstname.lastname@example.org, and we will do a Life Activation for you soon!
Love you all,
Jordan Bain is a Senior Guide, Healer and Teacher with the Modern Mystery School. He works tirelessly to assist others in their self-knowledge, healing, and life purpose. "If everything were to suddenly stop in your life tomorrow, where would you be? Would you be living in your joy? Would you be able to create a brand new life for yourself from scratch? Do you know yourself and your purpose enough to guide yourself on the right path for you?" These are essentials Jordan helps people move into and answer for themselves. He lives in the Boston area with his wife and two french bulldogs.