When you've seen enough of what works and what doesn't. When you know inside that there is more and a better way of doing you. When nobody else is going to forgive you for you. When the avenues of blame are dried up.
There is nowhere else to turn. There is only you, within you.
There's a hunger to awaken when you're at a breaking point.
There's a desire to be seen but much stronger is the desire to see.
People don't randomly wake up; their soul reaches its boiling point. Before that point, to an observer, the waters were calm. And just when you begin to boil, others see your process and it looks messy. The system is in a highly energized state of constant transformation.
"All things transform through fire" is an ancient alchemical saying. Your spirit is no different. When its mechanism of soul comes to a rolling boil, the real work can begin. Over that boiling pot, you can bring all manner of things through the alchemical processes required for self-mastery. Until one day you are empty. All the waters are burned off and you are free.
Until then, when your soul comes to a boil, don't turn down the heat.
Instead, embrace the boiling process itself and give yourself to the flame so you may one day realize you are it. You are the one thing that makes this whole process go; you are the process and you are the result.
You are who you were in the beginning, before you forgot; yet you're also the one who will remember and then grow into more than you ever were.
And this is the Mystery.
- Jordan Bain