"How did you realize this is what you wanted to do?"
I get this question all the time, from a majority of new clients and students. It's a very natural question --- I think we all wonder how another person found their passion and true calling, and we love to hear a bit of their story to help us access that same passion and calling in ourselves.
I'll tell a part of it today.
I first opened my healing practice in 2004 with an office at a Yoga Studio. After a year, my business was booming and things were good. But I longed to really help my clients take charge of their spiritual growth and move forward with joy. I saw that I took on energies from my clients and they from me. I knew I could do much more to serve them. I also couldn't find the right tools for this despite years and years of searching (since age 11). I had trained as a shaman, a reiki therapist, an angelic healer, a psychic, a massage therapist, and serious yoga and meditation student, an esoteric healer, and more...but none of the things I'd learned were helping me be in the light 100% of the time and show up fully for my client's highest good. Sure! THE CLIENTS felt the healing work I did was awesome and referred their friends. But I knew something was missing, big time.
I also saw that a person could have 10 healing sessions with me and rather than get empowered and clear within themselves, would turn me into their teacher, someone who "had great energy" or was supposed to know things about them, like the answers to their innermost questions.
This was a big warning sign for me that I needed a system that would allow me to remind people of what they already know, to activate their potential as SELF-healers, and not just talk nicely about doing this as a concept. It needed to be real and I had not found it amidst all the literature, classes, drum circles, yoga, meditations, religions, therapy, shamanism, acupuncture and...whew. The list went on. And I was only 24.
I saw the lives of those who sought spiritual growth marked with milestones of hardship and disappointment. I was the first victim of my own thirst to know myself. And I secretly was scared for anyone who stepped onto the path of self-realization, because I knew how much I had suffered in seeking my own inner being and truth. I have no idea if others could sense this in me, this fear or hesitation to work with them because I knew what might happen to their lives if they got in deep with themselves.
That hardship and disappointment, I knew, was not a "natural" product of living a spiritual life! Instead, I knew it came from not being in tune with my true self. But WHY wasn't I in tune after a decade of sincere seeking, meditation, and devoting my life to service?!? Was I THAT messed up?!?
I meditated in nature, outdoors, regardless of the season of year, 3-4 hours per day. I did yoga almost everyday. Sufi dancing. Native American chants. Sanskrit Mantras daily. Esoteric and angelic healing. Reiki on myself everyday. I got healings from other healers. Massage. Acupuncture. Kirtans. Running 3-4 days per week. I barely had time to hold a job.
I didn't just look for a spiritual "high".
I longed to understand the true nature of whom I am, live this, and help other help people find and live this for themselves. I wanted to make a big difference in the world. Living in a Himalayan cave is not my life path to enlightenment. The "cave" method of austerity seemed to be the primary, most visible method being published about and experienced...by a select few who seemed blessed enough to be able to afford (with time, money, and energy) to go live in a cave with a guru for 25+ years. And I knew it was thoroughly unrealistic for 99+% of humanity to undergo such grueling austerity just to attain an ephemeral feeling. I was better off dying and getting into the light that way!
After my first year of these intense prayers and questions to the universe, I was shown a mystery school guide. I had my first life activation, and that day the veils which stood between me and my dreams dissolved enough that I could finally reach through them and touch my destiny.
I got initiated (Empower Thyself Initiation) a few months later. That night I went to talk with my spirit guides (having been trained as a shaman for several years). I asked them a question. Instead a very different voice came back than what I was used to: "No. Masters of Light." This was a shock. My entire spiritual guidance system had undergone an enormous shift, instantly, through initiation. During the next few months of my life everything changed. I had tremendous clarity coming seemingly out of nowhere, on everything I could bring my attention to. My vision changed. I saw more in myself and in others. I felt feelings I never let myself feel before. I cried and I let go. Many years of change and transformation followed, and I grew into myself. Finally.
By 2008-2009, I opened my healing practice full time, and in 2010, started offering only the tools I was learning through the Modern Mystery School. I realized they did more than all the other things I'd learned combined, with grace and ease, and I was not the do-er. The lives of my clients began to change and they, too got empowered and grounded in themselves. They did not have hardship and disappointment as the result of their evolution. Yes, they went through hard challenges. But they came out of each challenge with greater light, simplicity, and grace. They were alchemically transmuting themselves: remembering their spiritual inner being, but still remaining grounded and whole as humans.
This is pure magick (in this lineage, we use the word "magick" with a "k" to signify the work of divine transformation). Modern Mystery School has given me the ability and tools to do all this and still grow in quantum leaps every day. It is truly a universal lineage --- I have seen it help people who are radically different from me in life experiences and backgrounds.
I am so blessed to be bringing this work to Boston, and I get to share it and my highest self with others every day.
I invite you to look at Modern Mystery School and consider if this story resonates with you. Perhaps we will talk soon! Give me a call or email if you want to do a free consultation.